Posts Tagged ‘death’


Thinking of the loved ones and life and death

May 30, 2013

Damyanti (hi!) has lost two people she loved very recently and I’m really sorry. She was asking for prayers and I wanted to keep her company but I couldn’t like that, so I posted a hug, which is another way of keeping people company when they’re hurt.

I’ve always thought spiritual people, or believers of religions, must feel really lucky in life (well, they actually call faith “a gift”) because I imagine it must be amazing to reunite with your loved ones after death, or to have some sort of awareness that all the suffering is over, all the injustice.

familianuclearI think my mum died on a May 30. It was 1990, in another life of mine. I’ve had so many lives, but all of them over here. And because of that, because the only place where I know she is is in my mind (my heart-mind, for being a feminist allows you to understand that the mind is where you can reason and where all feelings are produced), I try to think of her every now and then.  I’ve often thought I didn’t really get to know who she was, the person she was. I’ve often wondered why this happens to me. I never develop the feeling that I know the people I love. And when I hear someone saying, “I know you” or similar sentences I get sad, because I never say that.

I wish I knew the people I love.

Although it is also true that I tend to love everybody I relate to — in my own way, I mean, I’m an independent person, and loving for me is not about dependence, but just a feeling you share that connects you to people while they are around.

SONY DSCPerhaps the only person I know a bit more is the only person I’m in love with, because I think that when you fall in love with someone it’s because you KNOW (perceive) something about the beauty of that person. We share such a cheerful and loving love, so quiet and deep, so independent and collaborative, :D,  that if I weren’t so very busy every day, with tons of interesting and exciting things — fighting injustice and violence, creating curiosity and transmitting joy and passion!! A dream? — (that I suppose I can do because I enjoy this loving ground), I would hug this person and be unable to move away ever.

I know there must be thousands of persons each of us can love because I know the story of your half-orange is not true. On my part, I’ve found this person (never wanted to form a monogamous couple, really, but… :), and the love is so strong that I feel that if anything should happen, I would probably kill myself.

But then — I think, century after century human beings have survived loss, including the most painful kinds of losses, so perhaps if I should remain alive, I should simply put my life into some good use, like move to places that are too dangerous for most people, to help out…


Announcement – experiencing smells! (and another bit on Marilyn and death)

January 23, 2013

As you’re learning stuff about the senses, I’ll bring Chanel 5 and Coco Chanel tomorrow to class, in case you want to see/SMELL what they are like! I’ll have those in class on Thursday too, for the other two groups. If you are interested, remind me of that!

article-marilyn-monroe4There’s a very famous quote by Marilyn Monroe: She was asked “What do you wear in bed?” and she replied “Why, Chanel number 5, of course!” I was burning curious about this. Believe me! (Curiosity did not kill the cat – curiosity took her to interesting places!) So when I passed my Oposición (public/state teachers’ competitive exams), I bought Chanel number 5 to give it a try! It’s a very sweet smell, and I related it then to older women. But it’s a very mysterious smell when you wear it. Well, I also bought the eau de perfume because it was what my mother wore. She kind of identified with Marilyn Monroe. And I think she might’ve been right. The thing was that my mother died, and death is like this: at the beginning you can’t believe it. As time passes by you can’t bear it. Till you learn to create a room deep inside, that you can visit when you are ready. Every now and then, you really feel like visiting it. And it’s got nothing to do with religious beliefs, in my own view. It’s about remembering people you loved.

Considering death is a taboo subject in consumerist societies I should really set up a language school where I could also give workshops — especially to non-believers like myself — on How to Deal with the Death of Our Loved Ones.

Marilyn also said something which is really poetic, I mean, with the wild power of poetry: “Only parts of us will ever touch parts of others.”

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